Monday, May 27, 2013

Oh boy!  Big sigh…  It’s been a crazy, mostly awful few days.  Thank you, everyone, for your kind condolences and prayers.  I appreciate those so much. 

I haven’t been at the day job since last Monday, and I really miss it.  I love my job.  I really do.  I was on bereavement leave for Tuesday thru Thursday for Grandma’s death, then I had Friday as a vacation day.  We were going to go out of town to an antique car show, but due to the circumstances we cancelled and stayed home. I spent the time getting flowers ready, then putting a flower arrangement on Grandma’s grave.  It was too soon to go there.  I lost it and felt terrible, worse than I did.  Not to mention that I got into the old letters she wrote me, old photos, etc.  I realized last night that it’s too soon for me to look at those things.  Maybe in a month or so but not now.  So I put everything away and I’m going to focus on moving forward.  Grandma wouldn’t want me, would want anyone, feeling bad.  That I’m sure of.

So I’m really looking forward to getting life back to normal.  To going back to the day job, to going back to writing, to working on the house. We’re getting a deck put on the back of the house soon.  That’s going to be a lot of fun.  We’ve been discussing possibly getting a boat, a pontoon boat to be exact. Just something to get out on the water, barbecue, swim, relax.  Life is good. There is a lot of fun things to look forward to, and I’m very, very blessed. 

Monday, May 20, 2013

Difficult week

I’m going to try to make a real effort in blogging more often.  Life has been getting in the way big time. Spring/early summer is always hectic with gardening and other pre-summer things that need to be done, but we’ve also been renovating the house, redecorating, fixing up a writing room for me (yay!) and well…my grandmother just passed away this weekend…so I have a difficult week ahead. 

Looking toward the future, however, I’m planning to incorporate video blogging, or vlogging, as it’s termed. I thought that will give readers a deeper look at my life as an author and what’s behind the pages. 

So that’s it in a nutshell. I’m going to have a very challenging week, so I’m going to try to be kind to myself, maybe give myself a break for once.  I was close to my grandmother, and she was a direct link to the past, and that is now gone.  It’s hard.  Death is hard, and as much as it occurs in my life with friends and loved ones lost, I have yet to understand it.  Maybe I never will.